1983 lyrics - Xzibit (feat. Trena Joiner)

 I think we all have these moments in our life, where we say

Or do things

And we're so sorry for them, really

It's not the way we would have wanted it to come out

Umm, let's face it, this is real life

And this is the thought that was captured from me

That words only share a small portion of the vision that they give witness too

I had to write this in blood, because the ink wouldn't stick

I sold five to six million but, yo, that ain't really shit

It was supposed to be different, we were supposed to ride out

But too much shot his girl, then shot himself in the mouth

Then the steady game form but very soon fell apart

'Cause when you just doing all, with no the loyalty in your heart

It's like catching Alzheimers on all these niggers forgetting where they're coming from

And they're slowing down, wait a minute, what we're running from?

This what we're supposed to do, here's where we're supposed to be

I hated MTV for trying to play me like a mockery

But that don't bother me, I just fulfill my fucking contract

Small price to pay just to take a piece of mind back

My back, backfire, assassination of my character

Just to make some millions off of America

My younger sister, Erika, just adopted a child

My older brother served fifteen, he made it out

Even though my father loved me, I ain't seen him in a while

Had to fight my baby momma, bitch, give me my nigga now

'Cause he's running out of time and I need him to understand

The way a superior man had build a brand

Niggas talk about my taxes, had to pay to Uncle Sam

I'm surviving cause the mind's eyes quicker than the hand

Heartbreak, disappointment, my mother died when I was nine

I just wanted to join her

Nah Mr. Joiner, you get to California, I got something for you to do, it was like I was anointed

Resurrected, found my purpose

I remember meeting Dre, being nervous when I would kick my verses

I was virtually worthless, my whole life was a circus

I was sleeping with serpents and I thought it is worth it

Got a call from Paul, told me shit isn't working

Exchange words, told me tell me that shit in person

He probably told Em, and by the way did he said it unapologetic twisted made about him

I see Slim and he said he didn't recognize me

Was it that or did he let another man define me

I don't know, but now I gotta get this all behind me

Follow my calling when I used to follow niggers blindly

I wish I had a better relationship with my uncles

Blood relatives I could turn to when I'm feeling trouble

And talk about my struggles

My uncle John Nail, he only put me on the phone with different females

And this is such a such, nephew, tell 'er, what's up?

Ain't even ask about Tremayne and Gatlyn, growing up

Fuck, I drink it all and I smash the bottle

Self medicated numb, but I'mma feel it tomorrow

It feel like pain and sorrow was like a second skin

But now the pain is gone I got my second win

Only the strong live long, you better settle in

I'm fighting for ever, I will never let the devil win

1983, that's when my journey begins

I searched every world for strength, only to find it within

This for me and my kin, still dying to live

Living life to the fullest 'till I see you again